Initially I was drawn to this excerpt because of its undertone of tough love, to which, as I’m sure you know by now, I am very receptive. Upon further examination I realize that the philosophy behind it is applicable to every part of my life.
I attribute my hard-working, determined personality to the fact that I am Capricorn. Also attributable to this is could be my constant self-deprecation through criticism. Never am I smart enough, productive enough, accomplished enough, capable enough. This is of course through my own limited perception: I am not enough for myself, and I need to be better for myself. This internal monologue sabotages my power and successes in the long run as I look for concrete signs that I am improving.
However, in my bountiful 16 years I have scarcely seen a blatant or obvious mark of validation. If my “fruit of work” is my own satisfaction, then maybe I will have to do without it. This is not to say that I will be unsatisfied, but rather a suggestion that where I am, at any moment in time, is going to have to be enough: no more, no less.
Through this thinking, and with the eradication of my own undermining tendencies, I can move past my own mindset and expedite my growth boundlessly and without a reward or endpoint in sight.
This same thought process is important in an everyday yoga practice. No pose should be performed with the goal of perfection, or even to immediately reach full expression. Instead, focus should be on correct alignment, muscle energy, breath; all of the components that bring life to the pose as opposed to a quick artificial success or reward of an asana.
After all, the best part of any reward (whether it’s attainable or not) is working toward it. To quote Miley Cyrus, “It’s The Climb.” The best part of working toward being a yoga teacher is learning in a supportive and challenging environment with people I am safe with and deeply connected to; not the certificate at the end. The best part of Side-Angle Lunge is feeling the rock hard burn in my thighs as my breath circulates completely through my being as I glue my hands together for the bind; not the wobbly Bird of Paradise that I attempt just to prove I can.
The best part of life is living it.
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Breath and Body Yoga 2017